Love, tears, pain, is it worth it?
Yesterday,
my love relationship of nearly two years ended.
For me it ended in betrayal, but of course my partner did not feel this
way – even though she met a man she found on the internet… met him in real life
and married him only 9 days later.
I
woke up this morning. That’s IT. I woke up this morning; I WAS NOT dead! We bring things into and out of our lives
every single day. Some things are bigger
than others that is for certain, but the process is the same. Some things serve us better than others. Was my relationship good or bad? Why should I get tangled up in that web? My
relationship served me for a time, as I certainly hope and pray it did
her. I’m certain it did serve her, only
for different reasons. My relationship
no longer serves me (or her) and so now it is gone. Do I miss her?; of course. Do I still love her?; of course. Would I take her back?; of course (under
certain conditions). Do I regret my life
or choices?; some yes… but I learned from them and so in that sense I do
not.
When
you love – love fully. To share only
part of you to defend yourself against loves pain is not to love at all. I did this, so the pain I feel now is
justified; I asked for it.
That,
which does not kill you, only makes you stronger. Today I woke a stronger man … thank you Min
Elskling, I am forever grateful for you.
Bright blessings ~ Richard